Is it really Bipolar Disorder?
I was diagnosed with BPD in June of 2006.
Thinking back to the day I was diagnosed....I think I exaggerated some symptoms...or even lied.
I wasn't trying to pretend like something was wrong with me to get attention....I was just tired of feeling the way I did and I wanted an answer fast. Plus, I knew my brother was diagnosed with BPD a while back....and it just made sense to me at the time.
I had anorexia (undiagnosed) in high school....and I was a cutter. I had thoughts of suicide....but I never really planned anything out. I also wanted to go to college so badly. Then, when I was a senior in high school...I felt unbalanced in emotions. I was really irritated...and I would say really obnoxious things to people...but that was only in other classes. I was the leader of the marching band...and I would feel irritated...but I wouldn't say obnoxious things in that class.
Could it be that I am saying exactly what I feel most of the time because of issues I had as a child? My family would put me down a lot...and I wouldn't say anything to them. Could I just be lashing out because I am afraid of not being heard? And...lately....I have been very outspoken....My fiance and I broke up in May and things happened during that relationship that I didn't tell anyone about until after we broke up. And, after I told people, they didn't believe me at all.
Could my "symptoms of bipolar disorder" just be a late occurance of PTSD? I heard that it could happen later in life....
My Grandfather died the summer before 5th grade and it changed my life forever. I didn't even get to say goodbye....he just went into the hospital with gall stones....and should have came out alive.
Anyway....I am just wondering if I could have been misdiagnosed. And...if I have been....how do I fix that?