Depressed again - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

redtoenails · 11-17-2008, 01:16 PM

I am depressed, again. I am so tired of these mood swings ugh. When will the semester finally be over? I'm so exhausted by this illness. I feel like I can't catch a break. When do the mood swings end? When does it ever stop? I'm so tired of fighting already. How many more years of this? I'm starting to feel like staying on the meds isn't worth it. Too many side effects too little results that is the way it seems.

Red

tigger5150 · 11-17-2008, 04:40 PM

Hi Red..... have you talked to your pdoc... it just really seems like the combination of meds aren't working completely right.....

I know it's a struggle as I've been depressed and haven't responded the way I should to meds either which is why I have gone the ECT route. The first round of treatment held in combination with my new drugs for about 3 months. Now I'm gonna do another round and hope I get the same response while being a guinea pig for higher than usual dose of Cymbalta (180mg)....

Try to keep your head up and know that there are those of out here to support you.
Trish

dreams in neon · 11-17-2008, 06:34 PM

Red,

I know exactly how you feel as I've been rapid cycling for the past several weeks between mania, depression and irritability.

Like you, I feel completely exhausted and as if all of the energy inside me has been wiped out

Hang in there -- you're not alone.

dreams in neon
Bipolar I - Rapid Cycling
Schizoaffective Disorder - Bipolar Type

katlin09 · 11-17-2008, 08:48 PM

Red,

Hon hang in there, I know it sucks so so much. I don't switch between mania and depression...mines all depression...I usually make it a week to two between bouts of severe depression...and like you it just seems like it's not worth it. It usually gets to the point where I have to tell myself I really do have something to live for, while looking at a picture of my 10 yr old son, because the depression is so bad so often. But I also know without the meds...I'd never make it, I would've been dead a long long time ago. Just keep working with your pdoc and tdoc if you have one, be totally honest with them and make sure he/she knows that you really do not feel as if your meds are working. Hang in there, we're all here with you and for you.

Kat

seaturtle · 11-18-2008, 07:29 PM

Red,

I'm going through the same thing as neon. The depressions are awful, and I sometimes keep away from people because I'm so irritable.

I try to remember that this is not me, this is the illness speaking, and the feelings I'm having are the feelings of the illness, and that, hard as it is to believe, it will at some point pass. I also don't fight it any more, just tell myself "Well, you're going to feel like crap today, so go on anyway." And I lower my expectations of myself.

For me, being in contact with others helps. Unless they're in the pits, too, of course.

Kat, hello to you,

Seaturtle