New to BP and so happy to find this board

[blugreen]

I was just recently diagnosed as bipolar and started on Lamictal a few days ago. I can't wait for it to kick in. I have known there was something not right for a very long time and have been on several different antidepressants for the last year and a half and just keep getting worse. I actually have taken things for depression and PMS for about 10 years on and off. Anyway, I have been having marital problems for the last year due to a whole lot of issues that I wont actually get into all of it right now, but the point is that now that I know for sure that there is a true problem with me, I want to research and find out everything I can about it.

My husband believes that I have a problem, but he thinks everyone is moody, or irritable at times and I guess he thinks i'm turning this into more of a problem than it is. I am sooo aggravated with him because I try to explain to him all of the things I have been reading and I feel so validated about a lot my feelings, things I have done, or said for a long time. Now I know why I have been this way, it was out of my control. I just feel so alone though because I told my mother and she acted like she just didn't believe it. I just don't have anyone to talk to who understands me. they all think I just need to pick myself up and stop moping around and feeling sorry for myself. EASY FOR THEM TO SAY!!

My husband and I are planning on splitting after the holidays and I am having major issues with that. I was hoping that once we found out that I have a condition that is treatable and it's not my fault, that we could work on things. But, I have done so many things in the past that were wrong, I think it's too late. But, that's a whole other story. Anyway, I guess what I'm getting at is does anyone else feel that other people just don't understand?? How do you get them to believe that you're not just down, or "blue" and could come out of it if you really wanted to? I can't even talk to my husband about all the things I've been reading because I feel like he thinks I'm making excuses for my past behavior. I feel like no one takes me seriously, except the times when I was threatening suicide, but then they all thought I was crazy! Oh well, I just hope the Lamictal kicks in soon. So sorry for the long post…as I said, no one to talk to at the moment.

[CarenR]

welcome to the board,,,

hugs, Caren

Bipolar 1

ps I take Zyprexa 5mg

[dreams in neon]

Welcome to the boards!

I'm also currently taking Lamictal (100mg) while I'm inpatient and so far, it's working pretty well in relieving my depression.

Hope you enjoy the boards as much as I do.

[katcar897]

I know how you are feeling, I was treated for depression for 9 years with out much success until april when I hit rock bottom, luckily I still live at home with my parents who have been brilliant. As soon as I hit bottom, my mom took me to the doctors and kept pushing them saying that there was something wrong with and it wasn't just depression (thank god she did), I was finally diagnosed with bi-polar in august and am taking Depacote 500mg twice a day and Prozac 40mg a day.

Certain people at work knew about the depression but thought I was just being moody and was feeling sorry for myself, that maybe I liked feeling so down for the fun of it or that you knew what the problem was but you couldn't be bothered to sort it out when you didn't, you just knew you felt so alone and empty.

I'm not sure what to say about your husband as I am single (wonder why ) but it will get better.

Good luck

Kat x