seaturtle

Katlin -

Sorry you're still having such a rough time. The Cymbalta might be a godsend. I wrote about it already in a post to kat. I've seen it work when nothing else did, so I have my fingers crossed that will be the case for you, too.

The weekends are really tough. I live alone, and am rather isolated because I don't drive in this Vermont town, and weekends are the pits. I've been in a, well, lousy depression all weekend. Mondays, I usually pick up again. And it's cooold here, too.

Sometimes I make a plan for weekend days. It can help to actually sit down and plan your activities hour by hour, even if they're just mundane things like clean the bathroom or do the laundry, take a walk, whatever. Do you have anyone you can plan to see, or at least call, on the weekends?

Have you lived alone before (excepting your son now, but that is more responsibility than a companion). If you're used to being in a relationship, it can be incredibly tough during the transition. I ended a relationship several years ago, a long one, because I was getting abused, but I remember the loneliness after it ended. Missing someone, a lot of anger, depression, sense of loss...it all comes in waves. So I think a lot of what you're going through is the process of mourning, too.

I had to go through it and slowly find resources in myself to deal with being alone.
You will, too, in time. Meanwhile, try to make plans for very small goals and treats for yourself, take it easy, expect to feel lousy for a while and don't fight it or try to make it go away.

Wish I had more helpful things to say. If only all of us here dealing with loneliness could get together. At least we have this board to use, though.

Hang in there. It will get easier with time. And perhaps you will find new friends, a new close one.

Hugs,

Seaturtle