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prplelove · 11-28-2008, 02:44 PM

Hello everyone, I have been reading alot of the posts on here and I think I have finally found a place to meet people who are like me and can understand me. I am 32 and I have suffered from extremely high anxiety and depression most my life. I just got out of a very poor relationship where I was cheated on etc. That is a really really long story in itself. I have always thought that there was something really wrong with me cause I go through these moods and feelings that I don't see alot of other people go through. I feel emotions 100% stronger than a normal person feels them.

I just lost my job due to the actions and decisions I made to find out if my exboyfriend was cheating on me. I lost my daughter to my mom about 9 months ago because of my exboyfriend and more bad decisions I made. I know I am bipolar, I have all the symptoms, the mania is horrible, I drive all over the place when I feel that way. My brain will never shut up, I can't sleep, I can't eat. Its like i feel like whats the point in life? I seem to attract people who like to lie, cheat, steal from me, and take my life down a long bad road. All I want is someone to love me and pay attention to me. Is that so much to ask? I really need a network of friends and people to talk to. I live in Columbus Ohio and I don't have health insurance right now. Does anyone know of where or who I could contact to find free mental health help so that I can get diagnosed with something and get medication? Any help would be gratefully appreciated.

cool9 · 11-28-2008, 04:23 PM

Some Community Health Centers have free help but in my experience those Doctors are not good at prescribing medication, offering psychotherapy and have weak bedside manners. Some Universities have Resident Psychiatrists that see people for a very small fee usually. And most Psychiatrists will work out a smaller fee for you if you can't afford it. Hope you feel better.

dreams in neon · 11-28-2008, 05:13 PM

I would contact a local hospital and ask them for the nearest free mental health clinic. A 24 hour hotline number may also have this information.

The poster below me said that the help offered by free clinics isn't as good as it would be for "standard" clinics. The way I see it, you're better off getting *some* help and a diagnosis instead of none. It sounds like you need to be on meds ASAP and a little weekly therapy might not hurt, either.

In addition to a free clinic and university psychology department, you might want to look into a research/teaching or psychiatric hospital in your area. They may be able to refer you to low-income mental health facilities that offer services for free or at a reduced cost.

Good luck.

katlin09 · 11-28-2008, 08:57 PM

I totally agree with Dreams, at this point something for you would be better than nothing. You could also try calling your local health department and they could most likely give you a list of numbers in your area. Good Luck and let us know how you are doing.

dragonprincess · 12-05-2008, 02:20 PM

HI i'm DragonPrincess nice to meet you.you sound alot like me it will get better you'll see if you need to talk just let me know .I am 32 with 4 kids and have been through alot with this condtion.yes my brain won't shut up either just keeps going and going.hope i hare back from you soon.