Re: Manic Episodes and Exhaustion
When I'm manic, I'm running on full steam. I'm very, very active and don't get any sleep for 5 days at the least. I go from doing activity A to activity B back to activity A and then start activity C without finishing activity B. My concentration is severely diminished when I'm manic. The only good thing about being manic is that I feel REALLY good (at the beginning of a manic episode), I have heightened creativity, I'm witty, funny and I can do and remember anything. I don't like to be challenged when I'm manic but if someone does, I'll do everything I have to in order to prove them wrong and demonstrate my abilities.
Being in the hospital when I've crashed from mania to severe suicidal depression does several things: It prevents the possibility of me experiencing psychotic depression like I did in December, it prevents me from harming myself (and I do have problems with SH/SI) and it keeps me in a safe environment where I know I won't act on the commands of my voices when they tell me to hurt myself.
The menu here is pretty redundant. We have the same type of food every 3-4 days, but that's okay because the food is quite good actually and consists of meals that I enjoy eating. They are requiring me to have a protein drink at every meal again (as they did in December) but this time, the attending pdoc explained to me that this was to help increase my energy and improve my mood.
How are you feeling today? Any better? I hope so.
P.S. I'll post again tomorrow to let all of you know how I'm doing.
Atypical Bipolar I Disorder with Rapid Cycling
Risperdal 1mg titrating to 6mg/day
Klonopin .5mg (2x/day)
Trazodone 100mg or 200mg PRN