Today's Pdoc Appt.
Well I guess it went okay. He wasn't thrilled with the black eye, I tried to keep my glasses on, so he wouldn't see it, but that didn't work. I'd only been there 2 minutes when he asked me to take my glasses off. Then we had to have the whole, "why aren't you keeping yourself safe" discussion.
Then we moved into the whole David isn't keeping Nick save when he's there discussing. After that was the you still seem very depressed talk,,,,DUH. So we went over the meds, he took me off the Cymbalta completely, increased the buspar and the Trazadone up to 300mg, trying to get me to sleep, said we could go up to 400 if we need to be.
He was a bit concerned that my blood pressure is staying high, but I think that's due to all the stress and anxiety from dealing with my husband.
Other than that the rest of the visit went okay, we went over the plan for my mental/psych care now that I don't have a job, which we do every week, he's making sure I have a legitimate plan to keep going on with all my therapies and medications. We also went through the SH and Suicideal thoughts/ideations which have not been as prominant. With the SH I've actually been able to go for 2 - 3 days in between so that was good. He thinks since the Anxiety and stress is getting better that's helping the suicidal thoughts to become less prominant.
I have to keep sleep and food diaries for my pdoc, and he wasn't too impressed with the food diary....I just don't feel like eating most of the time. I try to eat one meal or at least a bowl of cereal each day along with my 2 slimfasts and some fruit and I have to force myself to choke all that down.
So some tweaks in meds, and hoping to get my sleep to more than 3 hours a night are the main goals before I see him in 2 weeks. That was the major accomplishment, I actually get to go 2 weeks this time before I see him. WOOHOO!