Originally Posted by irishwriter
a part of me wishes i would! it's been over a year since mania when i thought i was happy but was actually hyper and thought i could handle anything! was working five jobs and juggling everything even voluntary work as well! no wonder i crashed so spectacularly (suicide failure!) but am tired of this deep depression and trying meds that don't really help. you give me hope though that i will eventually find the ones that help, hopefully before may!!
Five jobs? Wow! I don't know how you managed to survive!
I know what you're going through in regards to your severe depression. I experienced severe depression 95% of the time in the early 90s as well as in 1995 after I lost my hearing. It was debilitating.
Although I oftentimes hear people with bipolar say they wish they "only" had unipolar depression, I don't feel the same way. Since my bipolar lies more on the manic side, I'm glad to have periods where I feel really, really good, I'm creative, productive and can tackle 10 things at once. It is said that mania can be more dangerous than severe depression given how impulsive people are during a manic episode, but I still enjoy every minute of it.
Hang in there! If I could find the right med combo after being unstable for 1.5 years, you can too!