I wrote that after one night. Sadly, the following 2 nights I was up til 1:30 and 2. I have to work in the church nursery this morning, and woke up feeling like I had a hangover, which I didn't. (maybe from desserts from a soiree we hosted last night
) Still, after 20 mins, I'm feeling pretty good. This is my usual pattern lately - 4-5 nights of 5-6 hrs sleep, waking up alert, then flagging in the evening after 11, but still part of me can't sleep. Then I'll wake up feeling wiped out on day 5 or 6, and feel normal within 15-20 mins.
My sleep pattern was this way for about 1 week at the end of Jan, when my brother's wife, 38, died of pancreatic cancer. So I thought is was emotional insomnia. I still think it was, but my tendency has always been to sleep less when under any stress, and sometimes when there is no stress.
I used to feel frustrated because I didn't want to get sick from lack of sleep, then I found that I did pretty well. So now when I wake up after 5-6 hrs, I just get up and start the day w/o feeling irritated about the lack of sleep. I tell myself, "You can cat-nap later. " But I rarely do. I think my worry comes from always making sure my kids got all their sleep, and I'm applying that to myself. Also, dh often sleeps 8-1/2-9 hrs, and I compare myself to him and think, "I'm not going to function as well." He is an amazing ponderer, with a long attention spanable to read for hours every day, if he can. I can't even read a book or watch a movie for more that 30 mins w/o getting squirrelly. (Actually, change that to 12 mins for a book.)
I noticed something yesterday. I was "overheating"
and knew I needed down time. But because of the busyness of the household and company, I couldn't. So I did something I've often done, starting phoning friends and relatives so that I could fold laundry and chat at the same time. This is how I like to do housework, and I think that's normal. But I had an almost panicky need to talk to someone, even though half of me didn't have the emotional energy to. Is this a problem for with of you? Fortunately for me, dh took all the kids and company bowling for 2 hrs, and I was able t be alone in the house, and actually watch a movie for 45 mins. But not until I got some housework done.
BTW, I'm noticing a dizziness over the last 5 days, along with the highs/restlessness. Is that part of hypomania?