Re: I believe I might have bipolar disorder or depression but don't know what to do
Hi lilyj, I wish I did what you are doing when I was 20 (or younger) and that is reach out and ask questions to deal with what you are going through, thinking and feeling. I'm 36 now and thinking of the course of my life, I always had depression, at times quite severe but was afraid to talk about it with anyone including my parents. I remember as a little kid crying so hard in my bedroom wanting to go and tell my parents but I couldn't. When I was 15, I tried to commit suicide, was unsuccessful (thankfully) but still never sought help. When I went to university, my doctor on campus queried depression but I denied it and denied it until after I graduated and continued to do so with my new doctor. Ten years ago is when I first talked to my doctor about what I was feeling and it's been an uphill battle since but you know what? It's been a good one from the perspective that I have a good medical "team" (I call them team) in place and am now diagnosed with bipolar II and PTSD and feel I have the right diagnosis. I just talked to my parents about it in December of 2008 - and they still don't know everything. Talk to whomever you feel comfortable talking to (that's key), I just encourage you to do so, it will help you and you'll start to develop a support base for yourself you'll be able to count on.