I'm new here and my day has been a day of writing and crying. Mymom lives in Holland (the country) and I miss her. I think I suffer from abandonment issues. I have such anger and resentment about the situation. She left my Dad for another man almost 10 years ago, and I still can't let go. Plus I'm on welfare, broke, and I don't know what the hell is taking so long for my disability. This is my 3rd time applying. I know I have to be patient, but come on! I'm antzy, twitchy, depressed, and sad. Can anyone help?