Originally Posted by chastidy
i really dont no where to turn-- ive been off my meds for so long been self medicating heavily with herbal remedies to be able to deal at all but its wearing thin im gettin worse wanting to hurt my self at times--ive been able to talk myself dwn to a dgree but this past weekend i had a breakdwn--started clawing myself pulling my hair and cried for 4 hrs strait voices getting way louder kinda tried to tell my boyfriend in a round about way an he just looks at me and says "you're doing better than you ever have" on the outside maybe inside its not so calm cant see a doc no ins medicaid/ssi/ssd is all pending-- that process is sednig me over the edge on top of it all any advice ?
You can go to any ER or hospital and tell them what's going on and how you're feeling and legally they can and will not turn you away for not having medical insurance. If you're feeeling as bad as you say perhaps that would be the thing to do, especially if you feel that your may be in danger of harming yourself. Please think about this okay, it'd be way better than the alternative.
I'm sorry that you've having such a hard time and that you're boyfriend doesn't seem to give you the support that you need to have right now. Hopefully as soon as you get your medicaid and such in order you can get back with a psychiatrist and get back on your meds and treatment. Have you went to the health dept. for the medicaid, it should be available within a week, I only ask becaus I just went through that and had my card within a week of applying. Call them or go there if you are able and try to get a quicker appt. But first of all take care of yourself, please consider going to the hospital for care.
wishing you the best,