Going to the doctor tomorrow, need some advice
Tomorrow morning, I go to see my psycharaist. He's a good guy, seems to listen and all that. But, for the last maybe month, I've just not felt normal. then again, when being Bipolar, i really don't know what normal is, but, I just haven't been able to shake the blahs. I don't feel overly happy, but I don't feel overly sad, I just simply feel blah.
I don't want to get out of bed, I can't seem to sleep without Ambien, I really don't want to go to work, don't really want to go out on weekends, and it just seems like my mind has been wandering more than usual. and I've had a couple of episodes over the last month that were pretty intense.
I don't know if it's the Lamictal and Celexa just playing with me, but I've been on them since August. I just feel weird.
So, how do i explain this to my doctor, without sounding like i'm being overly dramatic? I just don't want him to think that I'm "losing" it, but I also don't want to tell him that life is peachy keen. Maybe I'm just nervous about tomorrow because it's really the first time since I started seeing him that I feel like I"m taking a step back instead of taking a step forward. Maybe I"m just nervous that even though he's my doctor, he'll judge me like everyone else does in my life.
I don't know what I want or need. I guess I just needed to let this feeling inside me out, and just feel that no one else really understands me.
Sorry for wasting space, but thank you for listening.