Post-mania embarassment - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Bunnylover · 05-05-2009, 02:16 PM

So this Sunday I finally realized I'd been (hypo?)manic for the first two weeks. Mostly, my husband was out of town and I was finishing off a big chunk of my dissertation so I worked non-stop and didn't really do anything else (including eat.)

Then he came home, and well, I basically threw myself at him for five days non-stop. Not that he minded--as a result of all the medications I've had virtually no interest for 7 years--poor guy.

But now I feel horrible, humiliated, and angry with him. I guess it's not fair, but I feel taken advantage of, it was obvious I was manic, is that any different than taking advantage of a drunk woman? Does it matter that we're married?

I talked to my pdoc today about it, but he's really not that good at this stuff, much better at medications and all that. I don't have a therapist and don't ordinarily need one, although maybe I do.

Anyway, and perspective (greatly sought) or can anyone relate? Or this just another way I'm crazy?

bright12 · 05-05-2009, 05:05 PM

I have been in the same position. My husband didn't at first understand. But now that I have been diagnosed he totally understands. He doesn't blame me. We try to communicate as much as possible about how I am feeling.
Getting a therapist is a wonderful thing. I have one and she gives me perspective where no one else can.
Don't feel bad, it is normal for someone with bipolar to go thru these different phases.

Bunnylover · 05-05-2009, 06:28 PM

Thanks, I did talk to my husband when he got home from work. I still don't know how we balance this, but I feel better. It's nice to know I'm not the only one though.

bright12 · 05-06-2009, 06:53 AM

Believe me, you are not the only one. I still have those moments and he tells me its ok. He says For Better or For Worse. That are our vows.

janet1970 · 05-06-2009, 07:00 AM

I honestly look at it as a perk of hypomania. Like you said, a lot of the meds we are or have been on totally erase our sex drive. It feels good to want my husband and it feels good to make him happy, even if it is due to hypomania. If you don't enjoy it or are made to feel bad about it afterwards then that would be a problem. Otherwise, I say enjoy.