Moskies

I thank you all who gave me such nice ideas about how to spend sleepless hours during manic episodes when I posted during that most recent cycle. I finally called my pdoc and he gave me a pretty good step up in meds, such as more Seroquel for a few days, and dropping my antidepressant at the same time. Scary but it worked. I finally slept about six hours two nights in a row.

Then life hit hard. I may have to split with my husband of 26 yrs.
ok now I'm sleepless, trustless, self-esteemless and feel i don't deserve to eat a bite of food because it will make me ugly. or uglier and that must be why he did what he did for so long. I've seen my pdoc and tdoc and they haven't been able to help other than to say it's not me who should feel badly. Any ideas how I cannot?