Movies in head? - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

tattoogirl · 06-28-2009, 09:18 AM

Does anyone see movies in there head when trying to sleep when you are manic or hypomanic? My sister does as well. It's like things morphing together, very vivid and sometimes with music...actually sometimes, referring to music, I will know all the lyrics to a song that I didn't really know fully before....kinda like a mini acid trip in my head (although I never tried acid but it's the only way I can explain it). It comes with racing thoughts as well. When I am not manic/hypomanic I don't or am unable to do it...sometimes I try because it can be an indicator for me. It was keeping me up last night...and there were some really freaky clowns that were scaring me. It's not a waking psychosis or anything as the visions resolve when I open my eyes.

light the world · 06-28-2009, 10:33 AM

Its never happened to me with movies but it has happened with videogames that I play. Its as if I can play the game myself in my head while I'm trying to fall asleep. Its really annoying though because I can never get to sleep when this happens or think of other things. And I have to say that this has never happened when I'm hypomanic or manic, just when I'm in a normal mood. I assume that this is just part of insomnia

tattoogirl · 06-28-2009, 12:40 PM

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Originally Posted by light the world

Its never happened to me with movies but it has happened with videogames that I play. Its as if I can play the game myself in my head while I'm trying to fall asleep. Its really annoying though because I can never get to sleep when this happens or think of other things. And I have to say that this has never happened when I'm hypomanic or manic, just when I'm in a normal mood. I assume that this is just part of insomnia

Hmmmm....sometimes I don't know where I am in my cycling. I assume I am manic because I am crazy anxious usually that day and feel like I am living in a panic attack (don't have good euphoric moods). I switch so much from depression, suicidal to normal to edgy every darn 20 mins! Plus I expend so much energy suppressing and "controlling" what's going on inside to function and be "normal" in the world. Maybe it's just my mind letting everything out, I dunno. I hate all of this. Sorry for rambling. The only thing that's keeping me fighting, after all these years, is my son...I'm tired though.

***Oh also...it's not like I am seeing movies I have watched....but my mind is making them up and they are going a million miles a hour....shooting images that are very vivid and like a tripy movie ie...Living in Las Vegas (Johnny Depp movie.....think that's what it's called).

light the world · 06-28-2009, 12:49 PM

I understand. Kind of sounds like racing thoughts to me.

tattoogirl · 06-28-2009, 01:45 PM

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Originally Posted by light the world

I understand. Kind of sounds like racing thoughts to me.

Ya. It's helpful when someone can understand, thank you. I wish I had a friend that I could talk to about this. A fellow bipolar I guess

. My mind is never on one thing. A million thoughts at once. It used to be good in college, well kinda, I did some amazing papers and cranked stuff out but now there isn't much good that comes with it now. Do you have any tips to help with that? Thanks.