Today's Pdoc Appointment - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Llama · 06-30-2009, 01:02 PM

You'll never believe what happened. I sat there and basically cried my whole way through the appointment. I am done with pdocs! It will be scary going off my meds, but...I am not going back there!!!!!

He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!

He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!

Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!

strawberrysc · 06-30-2009, 01:14 PM

Llama

I am so sorry to hear that your doctor's appointment did not go well. I can kind of understand about the addiction. I became very addicted to Xanax because I had built up such a tolerance for it and I ended up in the hospital where they made me see an addiction counselor because of it. Even though it wasn't a psychological addiction, it was more physical, they still were very picky about it. I got berated as well, which didn't make me feel a whole lot better. Can you find a new psychiatrist who will be kinder to you? Drinking once a week does not sound like you are an alcoholic. I hope your day gets better and that you can find a new doctor who will treat you with respect.

Llama · 06-30-2009, 01:35 PM

Thanks strawberry. I really miss my old pdoc. I cannot see her anymore though because I only have medicaid. She was always respectful towards me. I don't even want to associate with this human service center anymore, but that seems to be my only option!

I am sorry to hear about your story with the xanax. It's not right for them to treat us this way.

CarenR · 06-30-2009, 02:12 PM

Such a bad scene. I am sorry for you......

hugs, Caren

dreams in neon · 06-30-2009, 03:27 PM

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Originally Posted by Llama

You'll never believe what happened. I sat there and basically cried my whole way through the appointment. I am done with pdocs! It will be scary going off my meds, but...I am not going back there!!!!!

He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!

He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!

Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!

(((Llama)))

I'm really sorry to hear that your appointment didn't go well.

I hope you'll forgive me for a lack of a longer response. I'm not thinking clearly today (I'm very tired), but I just wanted to send some hugs and let you know that I'm thinking of you.

I'll try to write a longer post later today or tomorrow because I do have some things I'd like to say in regards to what happened.

Again, I'm sorry your pdoc treated you the way he did. Pdocs like that are exactly the reason why I'm wary of them.