Re: Somebody please help me
i was diagnosed about 5 yrs ago , have always taken some sort of medicine perscribed. but i have never been fully better, never really felt normal, way better some times lasting a few months, then bang, depressed badly again, and relized i have never gotta truley better becuase i have been up and down continously for about 5 years. and i beat my self up with stress, i stress so bad my hair thins out , and i wear a wig, my face breaks out, just dont feel good, but as soon as i feel way better more manic , those thinggs disapear and i feel great. like i can only handle so much too , my running out of ideas to make myself normal , before i feel i totally lose it .
and i have really bad aniexty , always nervous, jumpy, sometiems when i talk i feel like im talking strangley and get uncomfortable, other times, i have so much confidence and feel normal, but really i dont know what normal feels like, ||
so im going off in left feild, im just glad i can write this stuff down .
i feel like i have some sort of personality disorder in a way , becuyase i change my life style all the time, go from one extreme to the next with everything. example, llived the life being a stripopper, to now working in a professional atomsphere , like just change so much , with everything , i dunno how to edxample , ,you message related to my thoughts but not sure how to example, hope this response helps lol ... im rambling ...