It appears you have not yet Signed Up with our community. To Sign Up for free, please click here....



Bipolar Disorder Message Board
Post New Thread   Closed Thread
LinkBack Thread Tools
Old 02-09-2011, 12:07 AM   #1
Junior Member
(female)
 
Join Date: Feb 2011
Location: Vancouver, BC, Canada
Posts: 15
DreamsInRainbow HB User
Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

Hi everybody - I am a bipolar II who had my first (and only so far) psychotic break a few months back after taking (I'm not kidding) some cough syrup and having a toke of pot. Sent me into a 4 day break from reality. I was having both auditory and visual hallucinations (mostly everything looked and sounded very "weird" - like it did back when I did acid as a teenager - haven't done acid for 25+ years!) Oh, I should mention I am a woman in my mid 40's and have been on Cymbalta and Topiramate for a few years and have been stable since then. No major highs or lows.

My question is what other BPII's have experienced as psychosis. I've only ever heard the word used without people really describing what they experienced. My visual hallucinations were that I could "make" objects look like something else (especially at night time in low light - my boyfriend's face would look like a monster and then like it was floating off his head etc) but I was aware I was doing it. It didn't happen on it's own. As far as auditory goes, everything sounded VERY strange - like a door slamming was like "WOW - that's so WEIRD!" It sounded like when you watch a screwball comedy and they add funny sound effects to normal things......

Have any other BPII's had any hallucinations or psychosis? What was it specifically and what brought it on? Thanks everyone for sharing......

 
Old 05-17-2011, 09:25 AM   #2
Newbie
(female)
 
Join Date: May 2011
Location: San Francisco, CA
Posts: 1
Iocane HB User
Re: Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

Hey DreamsInRainbow: I've experienced a few episodes of mild psychosis. I was diagnosed as Bipolar II last year, although I have suspected it since I was in my teens. The last two years I suspect I had a subtle disconnect from reality. I used to have hypomanic episodes, but now it is either a deep depression or mixed episodes. Before the lamotrigine it was pretty much a constant mixed depression, and I would see the world as flat, almost like a pop-up book, thought people were staring at me, etc. After I started the lamotrigine my episodes shifted into a flat deep depression. Under moments of high stress I would get paranoid, thinking my meds were placebo, etc. Recently it has just gotten worse. It is always stress and depression-triggered. I disconnect from reality and can't tell what is going on. I see doorways in the patterns of tiles, think the shadows of trees are trying to tell stories, that existence isn't real, my memories aren't real, and I can't tell where I am in time or memory. I used to be able to tell when I was having an episode of psychosis, but now my self-awareness is pretty much gone, hence the Abilify I am now on. A number of people insist that Bipolar II by definition can't have psychosis, and while that is the current DSM-IV definition, no one really goes by its limiting guidelines. Mental illness is much more varied and no one fits anything perfectly. In fact the DSM-V is coming out soon with a whole new criteria for Bipolar II. You might find this study interesting as well:

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20457470

Good luck with everything. Also, I used to be able to picture the same things!

 
The Following User Says Thank You to Iocane For This Useful Post:
jacq42 (09-25-2011)
Sponsors Lightbulb
   
Old 05-17-2011, 02:53 PM   #3
Inactive
(male)
 
Join Date: May 2011
Location: cincunnati
Posts: 23
lizanded HB User
Re: Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

Did your cough syrup have codiene in it? I have had codiene affect me like that.

I had hallucinations for weeks last year but mine were caused by dehyration.

I hope that you het well soon.

Ed

 
Old 09-15-2011, 06:18 AM   #4
Newbie
(female)
 
Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: ct
Posts: 9
ammums HB User
Re: Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

New here, but my pdoc and tdoc are still deciding if I am BP1 or BP2, but they are leaning toward BP2. I have been manic with psychosis. Never been able to will a hallucination on, though. I have seen tulips spinning while on a walk (and not just swaying in the breeze, but spinning crazy like a teacup ride at the fair), faces melting, bright blue chairs spinning round and round at my child's preschool and so on. If it was a bright color in my peripheral vision it would melt, move and spin. Shadows and bright colors almost took on a forth dimension. That's my experience, anyway.

 
Old 09-24-2011, 09:14 PM   #5
Junior Member
(female)
 
exoticsquare's Avatar
 
Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: U.S.A.
Posts: 27
exoticsquare HB User
Re: Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

I don't know if I'm Bipolar 1 or 2. I'm going to ask my doctor on my next visit. I've had a lot of weird experiences with bipolar, not just hallucinations. But with my hallucinations I would see dead relatives while I was driving. Like, a car would go by and I would see my dead uncle driving it. I knew it wasn't real, and it didn't scare me, I was just like...ok that was weird. I didn't think they were ghosts, and there was something happy about seeing them again. Also, I work at an elementary school. One of the teachers I assist I would "hear" his thoughts. This is called "loudspeaking." I knew it wasn't real. I didn't believe I was mind reading. It was like I was in a movie and I could hear the main characters thoughts out loud. I knew I was the only one who could hear them, and that no one knew it was happening except me. At the same time I knew it was odd and I knew something must be wrong with me. Also, several times I've heard music that wasn't there. The music is quiet like off in the distance. Every time I heard it was something new. Once it was an orchestra arrangement with a horn solo. Music I've never heard in real life. There was something comforting about it. Also, I've heard Pachelbel's Canon in a different sort of arrangement. Another time I was going to sleep and I heard my mom calling to me for help, but it only came from one ear, the ear I was sleeping on. I knew right away it wasn't real. Once I heard music and it sounded like a radio. I heard it for awhile before I realized no one was around me with the radio on. There was no TV on. It didn't make sense to hear it unless someone outside was playing music. So I went to the window to hear, and I heard nothing once I realized there was no music. Thankfully none of my hallucinations has frightened me. I don't know what I would do if I had those kind. I have had other things that has frightened me with bipolar, but not hallucinations. It's interesting to hear about others hallucinations.

 
Old 09-24-2011, 11:35 PM   #6
Inactive
(male)
 
Join Date: May 2011
Location: cincunnati
Posts: 23
lizanded HB User
Re: Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

How are you doing exoticsquare?

In my case I have 2 or 3 things going on.

I have tinnitis. That is when I hear music and what sounds like air leaking from a tire. I hear it almost every day. I believe this is an inner ear issue.

When I eventually lay down I have major problems with racing thoughts. Sometimes they are about my family and current events. Sometimes they are like a slideshow of rapidly moving pictures of real and unreal events.

They severely affect the quality of my sleep.

Most of my seroquel dosage adjustments have been to calm those thoughts down. I got up to taking 1600 mg a day (4-400 mg pills a day).

If I talk to myself in my head during the day I consider it as having a conversation with myself internally.

I used to pay good money to hallucinate back in my screwed up past. Because of that I understand what it is and make it through it much easier than most. I was super dehydrated most of last year. That means that I hallucinated a lot also.

I do not know why you are seeing the images that you see. That is something that only your therapist and you will know.

Have a very happy and healthy Sunday.

lizanded

 
Old 09-25-2011, 01:39 PM   #7
Junior Member
(female)
 
exoticsquare's Avatar
 
Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: U.S.A.
Posts: 27
exoticsquare HB User
Re: Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

I'm on medication now that has gotten rid of the hallucinations. I did have racing thoughts, but again my medicine is helping me a lot. The worst side effect I've been having is feeling tired all the time. I always want to take naps. I guess that is better than not being able to sleep and having racing thoughts. I'm trying to not take a nap today, so I will be able to sleep normally tonight. Lately, I've just been feeling tired, bored, and maybe a little depressed.

 
Old 09-25-2011, 05:28 PM   #8
Inactive
(male)
 
Join Date: May 2011
Location: cincunnati
Posts: 23
lizanded HB User
Re: Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

Even on 1600 mg of Seroquel or 200 mg of seroquel XR I still have racing thoughts. I still have conversations with myself during the day. They are just not as often. You can learn to manage them much better. Does that make any sense?

I also take Pretiq for depression, amitriptylene for insomnia/mood stabilizer and topiramate for mood stabilizer. Everybody blames my psych meds everytime that my system gets wacky. I only take 6 pills a day.

The depression that you are experiencing maybe from your bi-polar or you may have a full blown secondary diagnosis of depression itself. I definitely do.

If you are doing better on the meds that you are on that is wonderful news. A lot of times it can take 4-6 weeks to get the full effects of a new med.

I have been doing this a very long time. I can give you a list of all of the various meds that I have tried over the years. It wouldn't tell the full story though.

You may hate it one time and love it the next. It is all about what's going on with your system at any given time.

Take very good care of yourself. Please let us know if we can provide support or help in any way.

lizanded

 
Old 09-26-2011, 02:27 PM   #9
Junior Member
(female)
 
Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: Lafayette, LA, USA
Posts: 19
Laur765 HB User
Re: Bipolar II - Psychotic Break Symptoms?

I've had mild episodes, especially when in anxiety. Objects seem much larger than normal, like they're disproportionate to the rest of the room. Sounds get really loud, almost deafening. I also had one once when I decided to stop taking my meds on my own (stupid decision, please don't ever do it) because I thought o didn't need them. A few months later when my body was completely rid of every bit of meds int system, I had a complete meltdown. I got angry for absolutely no reason and found nothing wrong with it at the time- I thought I was completely justified. I cried for no reason and couldn't stop, and this was in public at a dinner. Absolutely could not stop, for anything, and couldn't explain why I was crying hysterically. I was very suicidal and talked to myself more than usual (because let's face it, we all talk to ourselves), and I blacked out at least once and don't remember what I was saying. Lesson learned, and I will never go off my meds abruptly or on my own again. But other than that, nothing too bad. I've had a few bad experiences when doing the few drugs I've tried, but nothing major.

 
Closed Thread

Similar Threads
Thread Thread Starter Board Replies Last Post
Bipolar meds with no weight gain ShayBunnie Bipolar Disorder 77 04-27-2009 12:26 AM
is it bipolar? punkrocker89 Bipolar Disorder 9 09-24-2007 09:55 PM
husband diagnosed with bipolar peanut72 Family & Friends of the Mentally Ill 35 06-09-2007 08:01 AM
Is it possible to be diagnosed with Bipolar and ??? Sternomaniac Bipolar Disorder 11 08-08-2006 11:31 AM
Can a person be bipolar..... wannaBcured Bipolar Disorder 2 07-24-2006 08:46 PM




Thread Tools

Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is Off
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are Off
Pingbacks are Off
Refbacks are Off




Join Our Newsletter

Stay healthy through tips curated by our health experts.

Whoops,

There was a problem adding your email Try again

Thank You

Your email has been added




Top 10 Drugs Discussed on this Board.
(Go to DrugTalk.com for complete list)
Abilify
Depakote
Lamictal
Lexapro
Lithium
  Prozac
Seroquel
Wellbutrin
Zoloft
Zyprexa







All times are GMT -7. The time now is 12:20 AM.



Site owned and operated by HealthBoards.com™
Copyright and Terms of Use © 1998-2014 HealthBoards.comô All rights reserved.
Do not copy or redistribute in any form!