| | New here and struggling after mania
I struggle with episodes of severe mania with psychosis but I have an amazing treatment team. If it weren't for them, I'd be unemployed and in some long term hospital setting. I consider myself quite lucky. I'm just settling from a prolonged manic swing. I hate the aftermath of mania because it's like looking back at the path of a destructive tornado. All you can see is the wreckage. I'm trying to count my blessings. I'm still employed ( I'm a scientist). I have good friends who have not, as of yet, thrown up their hands in frustration and walked away. My daughter is doing fine and seems relatively uneffected by my most recent descent into mania and psychosis. Those are the blessings. The not so good stuff, well that will heal in time, I guess. I go through this "I really don't like me very much" thinking after mania. I want to reach out and get some reassurance right now, but I think my support people are just a little tired of me right now. I'm feeling pretty alone.