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Old 03-18-2012, 07:42 AM   #1
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20 years of depression

Hi everyone!

I'm new to the board. Am quite glad I stumbled accross this place.

I've been suffering for depressions for at least 20 years. It was always 'just depressions' until 5-6 years ago when I was manic/depressed for almost a year. Since then I have suffered from a large number of depressions but also a few high periods. I have been pretty good at keeping it to myself (I am a brilliant actor), but I've started to open up a bit to a few near friends (mainly about the depressions) and to my partner too. I finally told my doctor about it and am waiting to see a specialist to find out if I'm Bipolar. I am pretty sure I am. So these are both exciting and scary times for me. I feel very alone about it, but it's going ok. Maybe because I'm depressed hence feel less. I've been really low for months, but am finally starting to get better. It's such a slow prosess!!!!

Wishing you all a nice day!

 
Old 04-06-2012, 08:25 AM   #2
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Re: 20 years of depression

Know this........reading about others in the same 'boat' helps tide over the distressing times.......Have been living with Bi[polar since at least '97. Have a strange strain/stress in left ear 30 years and that is the most prominent hassle for me....Wish u well

 
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Old 04-08-2012, 12:21 AM   #3
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Re: 20 years of depression

Hi!
Thanx for the uplifting message.
I am still waiting for help. I believe I'm to get an appointment in May. Am both scared and excited about it really.
Wishing you a lovely Easter break!

 
Old 04-09-2012, 12:16 PM   #4
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am surprised that u have to wait until May to get an appointment. Here in New Delhi, India it's the money aspect that holds people back... but psychatric services are available. I saw some video clips of folks living with Bipolar. They look wonderfully well and have a routine. I have not been able to get out the lows for an year now... and have just given up on everything. I just don't feel like exercising (used to love jogging, trekking, yoga ). Just eat , sleep,watch TV. Any ideas on how do i get out of this lethargy.

Loads of Luck

 
Old 04-10-2012, 02:53 AM   #5
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Hi!

Here (Norway) one has to wait for up to 3 months to get an appointment and then I believe the first appointment is to find out if you need help etc. so I think the treatment starts after that. I've been ill for more than 20 years, so in one way a month or two of waiting might not be such a big deal, but I am really eager to get started. I finally gather the strength to ask for help and then you're just a name on a waiting list...I feel sorry for the people who are in urgent need of help...

Sorry to hear you're feeling down, and that it has lasted for so long. I've been there for 6-7 months now and am finally starting to feel better. Nothing anybody said or did made a difference when I was at my worst. I wish there was a magic wand to make depression go away...but there isn't. I find swimming helps for me (just started swimming one eve per week). Walking too, but I am not that strong yet. Do you get any help for it? Hope so and that you'll feel better real soon.

Loads of luck to you too!

 
Old 04-10-2012, 08:18 PM   #6
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Re: 20 years of depression

I was diagnosed as bipolar 17 years ago. I have gone through several bouts of depression ranging from a couple months to a year. Never complaining about the manic as I was always invincible and loved the extreme energy.

However, I hit a major brick wall back in 2010 which kept me out of work, now I have been out of work without any income and have been struggling to raise my 2 kids. I don't seem to be bouncing back like I did before.

I am on 4 different meds which seem to keep me numb. Just going through the motions day after day. You are very lucky to still be able to hold your job. For your sake I hope its not bipolar.

 
Old 04-11-2012, 07:13 AM   #7
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Hi Ms. Norway ! Thanks for your response. Sure helps me to know that someone else does think about me .....Cheers

 
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I was diagnosed as bipolar 17 years ago. I have gone through several bouts of depression ranging from a couple months to a year. Never complaining about the manic as I was always invincible and loved the extreme energy.

However, I hit a major brick wall back in 2010 which kept me out of work, now I have been out of work without any income and have been struggling to raise my 2 kids. I don't seem to be bouncing back like I did before.

I am on 4 different meds which seem to keep me numb. Just going through the motions day after day. You are very lucky to still be able to hold your job. For your sake I hope its not bipolar.
Thank you.

I am pretty sure I'm bipolar, with the 'mildest' form rapid cycling (or something like that), still I find it very hard to deal with at times. I am against using medication really, but think it's time I accept that that might be something I have to start doing soon.

Reading your story made me feel sad, and I truly hope life will get better for you soon. Big hugs sent your way.

 
Old 04-11-2012, 09:29 AM   #9
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Hi Ms. Norway ! Thanks for your response. Sure helps me to know that someone else does think about me .....Cheers
Glad to hear it. I think it's important that people with Bipolar stick together. I feel less alone about my situation since I got to know others with similar issues. It makes a huge difference for me.

Have a nice eve!

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Old 04-12-2012, 09:10 AM   #10
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Indeed it's good to be here on this board where I can chat with like minded people. I also look forward to the 'highs' as opposed to being down in the dumps. I do look at the positives ....had the opportunity to work and travel quite a bit, have nice kids, have a family who can still afford to feed us... And yet I know the feeling of not being able to generate an income.

All the best to you -

 
Old 04-13-2012, 06:58 AM   #11
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Re: 20 years of depression

Thank you for your good wishes.
I am currently finding myself in a mixed state of depression and hypomania. It feels quite uncomfortable as I'm too depressed to do anything, yet my hypomania sets in and I cannot stop working. Feel so empty inside. Hope spring will bring some sunshine. Might help a bit...or make me high rather than low...Life feels very unpredictable at the moment.

I also try to think of the good things in my life; I have a great family, great kids, a good job etc. I guess it is what keeps me going.

Wishing you a lovely weekend!

 
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