I got diagnosed with hypomanic bipolar back in January.
I started on a lithium threatment that literally changed my life for the better.
After getting my life on track I started to notice that i sometimes, mostly when having a bad day, are getting these flashbacks.
It's like an emotionally slap that hit you in the face out of nowhere.
A split second where you loose your focus. Shot your eyes and get a strong feeling of dis-comfort. The feeling that whatever you are experiencing is Wrong! Sometimes it's almost sickening.
After the flashback i feel really bad. Almost depressed with the good old thoughts that yells "You are nothing. You are a bad person. You will never be good enough. I then recover after a few minutes and feel fine again untill next flashback.
The flashback are usually things i've forgotten all about.
Things from my past that I have almost denied happening. Getting shown to me right in front of my eyes like a video clip.
They are episodes where I in my childhood would wish i had done something else. A decision i made back then, that would now disgust me.
Sometimes it's even memories of sexual experiences I've had. Good or bad.
Have anyone experienced anything alike?
I heard it should be possible with a bipolar illness.