Re: Diagnosed Today
you have to ask yourself why you went to the Dr. It wasn't just because of your grandad, it was because of you.
You are Brainstorm, you are bipolar - I always like to think that the meds make me the person my parents brought me up to be - and let's not forget when we're high WE think we're the life and soul......but I know I can be pretty scary....when we're depressed or high our 0-4yrs old scripts our parents laid down go awry. Have you ever done anything you're ashamed of/regret/landed you in trouble but when you look back have no idea why did it - you were just having a good time? So you thought. Or thought things were so bleak there was no point in anything, so that it's actual physical pain? And then after wonder how on earth you could ever think that? why would you want to do this. It IS a hard road; but with good friends and family, who you must talk to about this, you will find a path. You may have to drastically change a few things (which really is hard - going to bed, not drinking too much, blah blah - but I haven't forsaken everything) I would not be without medication - it's not fair on my daughter, my parents, my partner, my friends, and most importantly me. I want to lead a life; whatever that may be.
PS being a hypochondriac comes with BP territory......just a tip....I always have cancer somewhere! x