I was diagnosed BP ab out 4 years ago. I am on a good coctail of Depakote, xanex, Prozac and Respridol. I feel like I have a pretty good handle on my day to day living then I had to have my gallbladder removed. They put me on Norco. After that Norco ran out, I saw my GP complaining of joint pain and still having gut pain, then after a colonoscopy I was diagnosed with Colitis, and then more Norco because I could no longer take any anti-inflamitory medication due to the meds for the colitis. So thats about 3 months solid on six norco a day plus my regular meds. Now, I have run out of norco early I cant refill for a week and I am a mess, I spent yesterday crying in my office over a sad song on the radio . The feeling passed quickly but it was there and I recognized it. Was it withdrall? My depression coming back? Me on the way to a mood swing that I can't stop? I feel helpless. My body hurts, my mind is spinning. I dont know what to do. I'm keeping up with things mainly because my husband wont let me call out of work every day or I would be fired so I write this from my office hoping I wont get caught. Any help or words of advice would be greatly appreciated.
I can sooo relate to what your'e going through. I went to rehab for cocaine addiction a year and a half ago and any time I have a craving, feeling, sad, need some company, anything, I go to an NA meeting. I don't believe all the God stuff and I certainly don't totally flow with the whole NA AA philosophy but I will tell you that you will get support, love, and honest help and advice about how to deal with subs. abuse issues like cravings, pain and everything in between. I hope you find the help you need and realize that you are never alone. Your emotional and physical health always come first, the job comes later
Thanks for the responce. I got a handle on it. It was a bad withdrall. I have no choice but to be on the pain medication because of my other issues but I can limit how much I take. I put 3 in my pill case where I keep all my other meds and I get 3 a day. Thats it. I have to be a grown up about this whole thing.
Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of children, do you understand? - The Crow