Re: Lamictal Help :(
I took Lamictal for about 9 months. It made me sleep very lightly, which made life surreal. I found it made me feel really weird and impulsive. I didn't feel I was "in the present emotionally." I quit taking it eventually.
You didn't ask about non-pharmaceutical ways to treat mood disturbance, but presumably you might be interested in my gleanings. If you're not eating well, you'd probably be surprised what better eating can do for your mood. I started eating better and feeling better. I realized I mostly just had reactive hypoglycemia. I couldn't eat glucose, fructose, invert sugar, or other concentrated simple sugars or I'd get mood swings from the blood sugar swing. (Better eating otherwise has given me quite a bit of tolerance for smaller amounts of simple sugars.)
It took me years before I finally learned what had made me so depressed (that I had sought treatment). It was melatonin. I've learned that melatonin can make me extremely depressed. Time and time again I experienced taking 3 mg one night would make me depressed (sometimes for weeks afterward). I don't understand why. It's almost unbearable how long the depression lasts after taking it. I have seen a FEW other reports of people experiencing this terrible side effect as well. Maybe it has to do with hormone disturbance or disturbing serotonin enzyme or receptor regulation. It's definitely something to watch out for if you take melatonin.
Too much calcium or vitamin D can cause mood disturbances too. I've learned phosphate is actually psychoactive (at least for some people). Too much phosphate can make me really depressed even now. Smaller amounts usually just make me feel emotionally detached (indifferent to things that would/should evoke emotion). It's not phosphate itself (which is essential for life!), it's just phosphate beyond some limit. Phosphoric acid and high phosphates are in a LOT of food. Soda and many other drinks are the worst things.
Of course, this is just my experience; your situation is very very likely different. But even if sugar/calcium/vit.D/phosphate aren't your issues, they can probably exacerbate (most) 'true' bipolar disorder too (& depression). And rather than melatonin, I've read that it helps us become tired at night to spend time outdoors in the morning. Morning light exposure can reprogram the circadian rhythm. I hope this info helps!