As someone with bipolar I have extremely poor organization skills.
This includes time management. Ironically too much free time can be a curse--especially without the emotional or financial means to enjoy or use it. Sometimes my medicine makes me tired too. Or at least lacking in ambition.
Does anyone have answers?
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Hi Mary Anon, I wish I had answers for you. I know exactly what you are feeling! I am struggling with the same issues. I feel so lost. I have rep payee for my SSDI because of my mania and impulse buying. I too have lost my ambition and can't seem to self motivate. I have been searching these boards for answers and haven't found any yet... yet being the key word.
I also sleep during the day anywhere from 2-4 hours. I think I am escaping from the world or it's my medications. I can't tell anymore. It's even affecting my faith which has been my life support. I wanted to even volunteer somewhere for a couple of hours but can't self motivate to do even that.
I really hope you find the answers you are looking for. I can only offer my understanding and support.
I have the same problem with too much time on my hands. I have tried writing out a schedule for each day but when my depression worsens I can't seem to make myself stick to it. I don't have the self-discipline during the depressive episodes. I have no motivation to do anything, to get out of bed, to visit with my family, everything seems so futile. I am currently on new meds and taking ECT treatments, but so far no good changes.
Like KGrant & Hope & Pray, I have no motivation to do anything other than the basics. Is it possible that lack of motivation is a part of the illness. I'm grateful that I can function each day and do the basics. I also wanted to volunteer and can't do that. I'm basically just existing. This is an awful illness but I can think of worst illnesses.