How progressive is Bipolar
I am posting because I have had my illness for the past 25 years and I now realize that there has never been a time when I have felt worse. I notice that I can never do without the medications, not that I am hooked on it but if I go one-two days without it I am in a state of severe depression. Once I tried going without it and I started getting symptoms of heart disease. However, this just started happening when I switched medications. Most of the other medications had me feeling too dopped up and I could not function because I was too sedated. When I started taking lithium I did not feel drugged but I noticed that I had severe diarrhea. Now I don't get that anymore but I cannot forget to take it for one day because there is a marked difference in my mood.
Today, I was on the internet and I was studying about the disease that I have and then I started feeling helpless and hopeless, so I talked with a counselor and I took my meds and signed up for this site... i find that talking helps me. Prior to about 2 years ago I did not have mania and depression together -- but it seems like now I do all the time. Before it was just one or the other. I feel that I have progressed from bipolar II to bipolar I--I am wondering how progressive is this disorder because it is becoming increasingly harder for me to deal with people.. it seems as though I have run out of patience. However, being a Christian, should make me more humble to others and exercise patience, but it almost appears as though I don't have that in me anymore. I feel like I am losing my grip.
Last edited by Administrator; 12-30-2012 at 10:52 PM.