Bi-Polar 2 ADD
I am bipolar and I also have ADD.
For years my wife had been trying to get me to go to a doctor because I was having mood swings... sometimes violent (yelling, punching walls n stuff, kicking walls n stuff, but never touching her or the kids). I refused because I thought it was her and not me... Anyway I had a great job and traveled the country doing my job. In 2004 I got a DUI and went into major depression. Just before that I was on a major high (mania). So I decided to seek help from my doctor. And he started treating me for ADD and depression with Wellbutrin and Zoloft. Things started getting better for a bit and I got on another mania high and began to get back to doing stupid things thinking I could do whatever I wanted and then got busted again... (not by the police but my wife). Internet stuff. Not the end of the world but it hurt her bad. This sent me into another deep depression. This went on and on until I decided to see a psychiatrist because I have a cousin with bipolar as well as my grandmother was diagnosed. I didn't want to lose everything (wife, kids).
I was then diagnosed as being Bipolar II. So now I'm Bipolar II and ADD. The Psyc put me on Lithium. I immediately leveled out. Unfortunately I lost my personality, work ethic, will to do anything, and reluctance to try new things. I have weened myself off of zoloft and wellbutrin because I didn't see the point of them. I feel better and think a little clearer but I still don't have any will to do much of anything.
My question is this: Will I be like this from now on? I really miss those days of being productive. I miss the days of being able to think fairly straight. I've always been easily distracted but I used to be able to come back and complete things. Now I'm lucky if I can start anything unless I'm told to do it by my wife. Lithium keeps me "flat". If I miss a dose everybody knows it.