i would like to thank all of you for your help and compassion for mine and others situations here, thank you.
last night i visited my parents, and you know, mothers know their children best and my mom knew there was something wrong with my mood so i told her what was going on., not in great detail though..
today she informed of that a few friends of hers she works with used the patch and could not stand the hormonal change they went through, one of them she said even got to mad during an argument with her boyfriend that she put her fist through a car window
she told me of something called "jasmin", which i have read about a few times on this forum.
i will look into jasmin as an alternative to this patch.
thank you all again