Thinking about it, I was happy at a size 14/16. Those were the happiest days of my life. I wanna be that happy again, go back there, but in my head, anything bigger than what i am now is unquestionable, unthinkable and just simply not allowed. Id love to be able to eat what i like within reason, and not feel guilty. I had a donut today, just one, instead of binging on a whole pack of cakes which i have done recently. It was a good donut, and i knew when to stop. Im hungry now, theres nothing id...

Well,here I am...the culmination of all my blogs come full circle.
I reminisce about the years of anger and what I allowed it to do to me.
It turned me into this unrecognizable being.Losing sight of myself was the least of my worries(or so it seemed).I had no concern for my own well-being.
My health declined,then stabilized and plummeted again.I was truly Mr.Inconsistent.
Truth be told,I didn't care if I lived,due to my quality of life issues.I was in the deepest,darkest...