Posted 12-01-2011 11:03 PM by Beeze
Updated 12-02-2011 12:47 AM by Administrator
I'm terribly bloated, and trying to write a 9 page paper... it's 10:52 pm and I hate to admit it but all I want to do is eat something. My boyfriend called into work tonight though because he is sick. So he's sleeping next to me as I write this and try not to think about how uncomfortable I am right now.
I feel like crying.
I feel like I'm huge and I just can't stop thinking about what i ate today and how it's litterally been months since I have done any...
Posted 12-01-2011 05:02 PM by Beeze
Updated 12-02-2011 12:51 AM by Administrator
It's only 5 pm but I'm trying to hang in there!
I know I probably didn't eat as much as i ought to today.
I just ate some pretzles.
For one my boyfriend is here so that's keeping me grounded. He is sleeping though (He works the graveyard shift) so it's hard to pre occupy my mind. I made some lavender "stress releif" tea and made a home made facial mask
I also have a lot of homework to do seeing as finals are this week and next, but I can't even concentrate...
My name is Beeze, I am 20 years [FONT="Book Antiqua"][/FONT]old, and I struggle with anorexia nervosa and bulimia, a.k.a. EDNOS.
I have been putting myself through this miserable journey for almost 5 years now, and quite frankly, I'm sick of it. I want to recover more than anything, and be living the life I know I should be living at this age.
I want a healthy body, and healthy life, and a healthy relationship with food. I want to get trhough school and have a normal life....