......don't fix it.

For me,things have become broken but repairing takes so much time and energy.

Like in therapy;sure it's helping but the one step forwards and another step back...............

It's all part of the process.
I have amassed 7 years worth of issues.
I've been carrying them ariund like a metal ball and chain.
OK, the first part is recognizing that there's a problem.......next is doing something about it,which I've done...

I'm new to this. I'm also desperate. Although there are people that care about me and love me, I feel alone. I feel anxious, sad and empty. I feel... like a failure. I'm so lost in this world. I know where I want to be but I have no idea how to get there. School is not for me. Yet, I'm in my second year at a University I'm failing miserably and I just want to quit.

Hi-Today is not a good day...I'm sad,hurt,angry. Let me give you some background info...I have been married to my 2nd husband for years. We have teenagers. we do not have any children together,however we have always taken to each child as if they were our own since neither parent was in their lives. My ex-husband went to prison and his ex-wife lost her parental rights about the same time for neglect and abuse.

Now...I didn't take my kids to see their father as much as I should have...

Here I am....

Do you know what it takes to be positive in a blog,when the greater part of you wants to be negative?

Well,I hope you never get to that point;where you have a crises of more than conscience but also disorders.
I want to tell whomever will read this,that i'm trying extremely hard to place a positive a spin on this;after all,there are those who do this for a living.
This is where it stops.
No one can buy me because i'm not for sale..........

Just when I thought I was getting somewhere blogging,things began to backfire.
It takes way too much energy for me to post and I end up drained.

I actually have come to the realization that this has never really been about the views(even though it was nice to know a few people were paying attention).
My inability to continue blogging on a daily basis doesn't bring me down as much as I thought it would.
I have come to the realization that I have to do things at...