It being submitted into evidence and twisted to mean other than I intended. I try my best,to be as sincere as possible here and yet and still potentially expose myself to my very own words being used against me.

I want my own life back;to know that I can post what I want,when I want and it not be used out of context.

They say the truth will set you free but in this case I feel that the truth may set me up.

Go figure.....
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Well,here I go again.....
The movie that plays over and over in my mind has wound me up yet again(Hello Mr.Klonopin).
I can't get the thought of the accident and all its' subcomponents out of my head.
Why can't I seem to go forward,without feeling i'm taking two steps back?
I've had an eating disorder before but never 7 years straight nor in intensity of sometimes up to ten times a day.
This accident has opened the flood gates to all of my other issues and it makes...

Even though she stated that she's retiring next May,I look back at the nearly 4 years of sessions.
She knows me to a tee almost,which is a reason that I feel that I can be myself around her.
She doesn't judge me and stops me when I wade in the waters of victim mode too long.
She is fully aware that every session since day one,I can speak about how the motor vehicle accident of July 27th has severely impaired my life but she stops me from time to time,which is a good thing....

Early this morning,say around 2am EST,I took a drive because I couldn't seem to sleep.
Lo and behold,I see a woman sleeping in front of a library and she had something that resembled a child's bassinet.
As she wasn't facing me,I can't really say with 100% surety that there was a child with her.
I was so torn by what I saw,that I didn't have the heart to call the authorities.

It was a wake up call for me;to be grateful for what I do have.

I don't...

This morning I woke up in PAIN.

Not the usual,wake up and expect to curse under your breath,type of pain but more like a pain that turned me from a wounded being to a philosopher,contemplating the meaning of life itself.
This is the type of pain that i'd even wish on my enemies(sorry but there's little room for compassion,when you feel like pain personified exponentially).

They say pain is one of those experiences that makes you know you're alive.
Hmmmm............