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Entry #1

Posted 12-01-2011 at 12:32 PM by Beeze
Updated 12-01-2011 at 04:18 PM by Administrator

My name is Beeze, I am 20 years old, and I struggle with anorexia nervosa and bulimia, a.k.a. EDNOS.
I have been putting myself through this miserable journey for almost 5 years now, and quite frankly, I'm sick of it. I want to recover more than anything, and be living the life I know I should be living at this age.
I want a healthy body, and healthy life, and a healthy relationship with food. I want to get trhough school and have a normal life. I want to recover for my boyfriend,...
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Recovery Diary #1.5

Posted 11-07-2011 at 09:17 PM by roxmysox

Just binged and purged on pasta. This isn't going so well. I think the beans I ate before triggered me to want more, and the bloating did too.
I'm going to try harder tomorrow.
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Recovery Diary #1

Posted 11-07-2011 at 08:00 PM by roxmysox

I've already got a recovery diary, but that's more of a log of food I've eaten (without the calories counted) and how I feel at the end of the day, so I'll keep that separate and just elaborate more on the feelings part.
Today was okay, yesterday was better. I threw up a bit today, and I feel terrible about it, but tomorrow's another day. I saw my boyfriend and we had coffee and talked about stupid stuff and laughed before we both went home.
Thanks to always8 for responding to my...
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Yesterday was bad, hope today is better

Posted 10-26-2010 at 05:57 AM by jcrosser

I just ate and ate yesterday and did absolutely nothing. I had no clients at work and I am glad that I didn't because I felt like a horrible person. I have just been feeling so down on myself lately. I don't know why I go through these periods of self hatred. Is there something wrong with me? I feel depressed, is this depression? I know I would never kill myself, but sometimes I wish I were dead. Sometimes I think I inherited bad mental health genes from my mother (who is schizophrenic)....
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Structure

Posted 10-24-2010 at 07:05 PM by jcrosser

My thought for today is that I need more structure in my life. I get so obsessed with food that it just spirals out of control so easily.

I find that when there is something I can do that feels purposeful and is in a controlled environment (i.e. not at home by myself) I can control my eating. However, if I have binged earlier that day, then forget it, the rest of the day is shot. After that, no matter where I go or what I do I think about food.

That is just what...
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