well i went to the doctor today because i was in pain in the last few days and i had started to bleed i was so scared that the cyst that i have had ruptured and i would have to have surgery to remove it and my ovary, i was so scared my doctor told me there was nothing she could do and that i had to go to an Gyn and that she would tell me what was going to be done and then she did a pregnancy test and surprise surprise its a big fat positive!!!! the only thing is that since i have not had any periods...

i know i should feel blessed i have a wonderful husband who is by me and cares about me lots, i have great bosses and a great jon but the one thing that i want the most i cant at the moment seems impossible even to consider is a baby. i wonder why me? i have seen peope become pregnant so easily with out really wanting it and i who does cant seem to. i dont know whats wrong i just feel crappy

What is my next step going to be?

My options are to
A) Move on, forget about it.
B) Seek help which would probably mean medication which may hinder me in the future.
C) keep it to myself and fall deaper into the hole I'm diggin.

I'm finding that this is making it easier when talking aloud (well typing) even if no-one is listening (reading).

blueeyes. x

Hello,
I am ME. I'm feeling a little lonely today, well mostly every day. I find all I wish for is to be NORMAL, whatever that means.

RECAP.
I'm 22 years old, been Happily marriesd for 4 years, I am a little unhappy at work but otherwise was happy with life.
Then I find out I probably can't conceive a child naturally and would need help. Aswell as having PCOS I'm overweight and can't loose it, so I'm on these tablets to try and help me, but I'm too scared to weigh...