For years I use to be so angry at him,nicknaming him "the person I call father,the grinch" and a host of other names.
Growing up with him was tough,for so many reasons but this isn't about pointing solely at the bad.
I now view the "not so good times" as historic points in my life,that without them,it wouldn't have brought me to where I am today.
Knowing him has made me a better individual,for I learned a lot from him and have to admit that it wasn't all...

Nothing lasts forever and I feel that it's slowly running its' course.
There were good times and not so good.
Through it all,I learned a lot about myself.
I look back at therapy as a whole;the places i've been and the things I had to endure.
I'm a better person for it.
For the first time in years,I am beginning to see light,not yet knowing how far away I am from the end of my tunnel but that's alright for me,for now.
Things are beginning to happen for me,in...

I remember the first time my therapist told me about safe place imagery.To tell the truth,I didn't pay it much mind;primarily because I couldn't envision a place that I could truly call "safe."
It took quite some time for me to even close my eyes in her presence.
Once I was able to envision places,they were dark and dungeon-like in appearance;if not totally dark.
I noticed a place in my apartment that I could call reasonably safe and used that image for a while but...

I though that once certain issues in my life over,I would feel much better;dare I use the word "relieved."
This couldn't be further from the truth,yet I still try to put on a happy face.
It does leave me with a ton of anxiety to deal with though.

I don't know whether to embrace it or distance myself from its' existence.
It's sort of tricky,like a catch-22 scenario.

I have to release myself from this feeling sometime soon.......
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I have come to realize that I possess a certain "hunger" within myself,which creates a driving force to help me maintain life on the straight and narrow.

It's interesting that I used the word "hunger" because there is very little that motivates me and I must hold on to that which is offered me.

I want to be a friend to others but it's rather difficult when a person possesses unresolved trust issues.

I want so much right now;not in...