well i went to the doctor today because i was in pain in the last few days and i had started to bleed i was so scared that the cyst that i have had ruptured and i would have to have surgery to remove it and my ovary, i was so scared my doctor told me there was nothing she could do and that i had to go to an Gyn and that she would tell me what was going to be done and then she did a pregnancy test and surprise surprise its a big fat positive!!!! the only thing is that since i have not had any periods...

i know i should feel blessed i have a wonderful husband who is by me and cares about me lots, i have great bosses and a great jon but the one thing that i want the most i cant at the moment seems impossible even to consider is a baby. i wonder why me? i have seen peope become pregnant so easily with out really wanting it and i who does cant seem to. i dont know whats wrong i just feel crappy