Thinking about it, I was happy at a size 14/16. Those were the happiest days of my life. I wanna be that happy again, go back there, but in my head, anything bigger than what i am now is unquestionable, unthinkable and just simply not allowed. Id love to be able to eat what i like within reason, and not feel guilty. I had a donut today, just one, instead of binging on a whole pack of cakes which i have done recently. It was a good donut, and i knew when to stop. Im hungry now, theres nothing id...

The difference with me, is that im a pretty open person. Most people with eating disorders ignore the problem, ignore the issues they have. Some dont even know they have these issues. Im bored of mine now. I see normal people living normal lives and it kills me to think that im not one of them. If im not over eating, im over exercising. Ive im not too busy eating cake and chocolate, im obsessing about how fat it makes you and what it does to your body. The truth is, this past week, ive been binging....