Eating Disorders Be Gone!
Thinking about it, I was happy at a size 14/16. Those were the happiest days of my life. I wanna be that happy again, go back there, but in my head, anything bigger than what i am now is unquestionable, unthinkable and just simply not allowed. Id love to be able to eat what i like within reason, and not feel guilty. I had a donut today, just one, instead of binging on a whole pack of cakes which i have done recently. It was a good donut, and i knew when to stop. Im hungry now, theres nothing id like more than to raid the cupboard... but then she whispers in my head, the voice, the eating disorder. I guess i'll go wash the dishes and stay slim.