http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/eliza011294/ Health related message boards offering discussions of numerous health topics including allergies, cancer, diabetes, heart disease, exercise, attention deficit disorder, diet, and nutrition. en Sun, 19 May 2013 18:28:22 GMT vBulletin 1 http://www.healthboards.com/boards/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/eliza011294/ http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/eliza011294/3216-eating-disorders-gone.html Thu, 20 Dec 2012 21:28:52 GMT Thinking about it, I was happy at a size 14/16. Those were the happiest days of my life. I wanna be that happy again, go back there, but in my head, anything bigger than what i am now is unquestionable, unthinkable and just simply not allowed. Id... Thinking about it, I was happy at a size 14/16. Those were the happiest days of my life. I wanna be that happy again, go back there, but in my head, anything bigger than what i am now is unquestionable, unthinkable and just simply not allowed. Id love to be able to eat what i like within reason, and not feel guilty. I had a donut today, just one, instead of binging on a whole pack of cakes which i have done recently. It was a good donut, and i knew when to stop. Im hungry now, theres nothing id like more than to raid the cupboard... but then she whispers in my head, the voice, the eating disorder. I guess i'll go wash the dishes and stay slim. ]]> Eliza011294 http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/eliza011294/3216-eating-disorders-gone.html http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/eliza011294/3214-eating-disorders-gone.html Wed, 19 Dec 2012 22:55:48 GMT The difference with me, is that im a pretty open person. Most people with eating disorders ignore the problem, ignore the issues they have. Some dont even know they have these issues. Im bored of mine now. I see normal people living normal lives and... The difference with me, is that im a pretty open person. Most people with eating disorders ignore the problem, ignore the issues they have. Some dont even know they have these issues. Im bored of mine now. I see normal people living normal lives and it kills me to think that im not one of them. If im not over eating, im over exercising. Ive im not too busy eating cake and chocolate, im obsessing about how fat it makes you and what it does to your body. The truth is, this past week, ive been binging. Ive probably eaten about 40000 calories in 6/7 days, not dont get me wrong, i needed to put on weight, and now i have, im kinda worried, but its nice not being constantly cold. The past 2 years has been about anorexia and control, and now ive thrown it out the window, and the the other extreme. Ive gone into a frenzy, and now its starting to suck. My head cant take it but my body just wants food. I havent had a period in a year. I just hope this one good thing comes out of it. ]]> Eliza011294 http://www.healthboards.com/boards/blogs/eliza011294/3214-eating-disorders-gone.html