Living with COPD
Today, is the first day of my journal. I plan on using this to help me articulate my thoughts, feelings and fears in reference to my disease. You see, I have severe COPD, and lung cancer. The cancer has been taken care of through surgery. I was blessed, it was stage 1A, so the cancer was removed by taking out two of my three right lobes. I do get CAT scans every three months for the next 2 years, just to be on the safe side.
In aspect to the cancer, even though it's no longer there, I still worry about it. You can't help, but to worry. "Is it going to come back?" "What will I do if it does?" You have to tell yourself, I will worry about it when and if the time comes. I can't spend my life worrying about something that may not happen again. Life is too short!
Now, trying to live with severe COPD is quite different. Since my surgery, my life has changed so much that it still takes my breath away. Oh, wait a minute, maybe thats my COPD. No, all kidding aside, my life has changed so much. I was very active, worked hard and loved my job. Lived in a 2 1/2 story house, with 2 acreas. When I walked, I did it fast. I did everything fast. Never learned how to slow down and that's probably one of the reasons I was successful.
Now I'm disabled, on oxygen 24/7, am alone, and in most instances, apartment bound. I get out of breath getting dressed, taking a shower, even cooking something to eat. I sleep alot. First thing that just came into my head is "This is not going to be a pity party." And I'm right. What I want to state are the facts, what it's really like to live with COPD. Hopefully, how I can make my life better, and also help others. The fact is, living with severe COPD is very difficult. So, if you have mild COPD, throw those cigs. away. Stop smoking. If you don't smoke find out what is causing your COPD and do everything your doctor tells you to do. Slow it DOWN. Don't become me!