My body is in so much pain today that I can barely stand to sit and write this. I will have to try and walk around a bit to try and get relief. It hurts to sit, it hurts to stand and God does it hurt to walk. Sometimes, like today, I feel a bit out of it as well. I feel like I am here but not really hear. Sounds weird I know, but imagine how weird it feels to me. This waiting on a decision for my SSD id excruciating, it's almost as bad as my daily pain. I just feel like my whole world is completely upside down.