Another bad day for me, I can hardly stand it. I don't want to take a muscle relaxer because it will just makes me want to sleep all day and with CFS already beating me down, that would not be good for me. Everyday seems to be a struggle and it is getting worse day by day. Relief, now there is a word I would sure welcome.

My body is in so much pain today that I can barely stand to sit and write this. I will have to try and walk around a bit to try and get relief. It hurts to sit, it hurts to stand and God does it hurt to walk. Sometimes, like today, I feel a bit out of it as well. I feel like I am here but not really hear. Sounds weird I know, but imagine how weird it feels to me. This waiting on a decision for my SSD id excruciating, it's almost as bad as my daily pain. I just feel like my whole world is completely...