I have not been here in a while.
Just the short of everything.
First my parents did not wish me a happy b-day and this has been the first time in my life that they did something this horrible.
Second, a message board that I go to has this one girl who was my friend once and started to leave me out now that she is "popular". I think that this girl is spreading gossip about me. Something about her seems very caniving too (she knows how to get people to like her and...

I am in my 30's I am single, never been in love. I don't drive cause of a major phobia. I live in a rural area. I don't work cause of my mental disorder. I have to wait for the state (social services) to see what kind of service that they can provide for me.
I have only one just one offline friend. But she only likes me if I talk about her favorite actor that she is so obsessed with. She wants me to like him like she does. And if I don't she will see to it that my life is miserable....

You know I am in my 30's gonna be 37 soon and I have never been in love or married. It hurts, I know love is not like what you read in books and stuff. I know that like with any relationship it has its ups and downs, but I have been so curious as to what it is like to be inlove. I have wondered this for 20 years now. Sure, I dated, but those guys who dated me were jerks, they either used me or they abused me. Where was I when they passed out the "lucky to be in love cards". I must...