I have never done this posting thing before. I am just trying to have someone or something to talk to. I know now that there are other people who have had similar experiences. That knowledge alone is inspiring and makes me feel NORMAL. It's an amazing concept for me to feel normal.

Anyway, I am ready to talk about my life and I think this is a good place to do it. I just want to find a strong, peaceful and successful human underneath all of this self-doubt and worry that I...