life after stroke

I had my first stroke on my 46th birthday. worst birthday ever . now a year and a half later i'm still deaf in the right ear and have balance issues . I live in isolation with little hope to prosper and be a contributing member of society,and the hope of meeting a true love is non exsistant . Living alone stinks lol. So i wake up everyday and wonder what god has in store for me. what good can i do like this. i am grateful to be able to walk and talk and most of all being alive 1 more day