Loosing everyone I love/care about
I feel as though I loose everyone I love or care about. It used to be so easy for me to make friends but I have lost almost every friend I made. I resently stopped blaming others and started to look at myself. I feel like the only reason I am loosing all these friends is because I stand up for people and myself and get angery at other easily. I constantly feel as though people are going behind my back and a lot of times they are. My boyfriend and I have been fighting all the time because I am paranoid about him leaving me for some other girl. He left the house (where we live) and went off for the day (I dont know where). I asked my so called "bestfriends" to tell me if they see him because I was worried. He hung out with them. They didnt tell me instead they ignored all of my calls and texts when they promissed they would call me. I can not trust anyone because no one gives me a reason to trust them. I need to work on trusting my boyfriend and being a better judge of friends. What ever advice on judging who to be friends with would be helpful or how to trust in relationship. How to forgive people too. Or how to break off friendships.