Sick of it All!
Sometimes I really just want to quit trying. I haven't started AF yet but I feel like I do every other month around this time. Should be starting towards the end of next week. It's really hard to stay positive in situations like this. We still don't know definitively why we are ot conceiving. I have a wonderful fiance who has continued to support me and our efforts but he will never understand from a woman's perspective. I find myself feeling totally hopeless. Thsi is one of those things over which we have no control and it is incredibly frustrating. I have always been a hard worker and stick with things to the end; I earned my degree and got myself an awesome job. But there were measurable accomplishments involved with both of those; with this, we're literally shooting in the dark. I want to belive that it will happen for us; I know we will make great parents and I can't wait to be a mother! But I'm so scared of failure. Trying to figure out ways to deal with the stress of it all; thinking about taking up yoga! Hopefully I can at least get back to my more positive character soon; and even more hopefully, we will be blessed with what can only be described as our little miracle : )