Time to move forward again
8 days, 10 hours and 16 minutes
With a combination of the patches, lozenges and the terrible fear that I have gone through over the last few months, well it is proving easier to get past the nicotine dependency than I every thought possible.
I am not craving much at all, and of course the biggest worry of all has been removed. The other side of things is that I have realised how much I want to live, so that is also having an impact.
Yes, stress is still incredibly high, I am in a mess both personally and financially, beyond anything that I could have ever thought possible. Having said that, I am now in a position whereby I am looking at a manageable chronic illness which is far better than yesterday.
Anyhow, I have got a lot of things to workout, lots of tests to go and also work to do, all i need is for a couple of reasonable orders to come in, and I could start to pay my debts.
I guess that as a result of the X-Ray, I have moved significantly on the depression side, possibly to the first or second circle..... so this is far better than I thought, one day I can now hope that I can leave..... there is a lot to do first though.