I have come to realize that life has to be complicated for me,for it seems to be a distraction at points,from my daily ailments.
There is this intense anger felt inside,which I must admit,has gotten the better of me and my relationship with my family members.
I realize that my decisions have paved the way towards my current destination.
PTSD and Depression,along with chronic pain,for me,brings about anger but it doesn't simply end there.
I'm not about to make this a pity blog but I have to get this out to move forward.
When I say i've "been there and done that," i'm not bragging but simply stating i've been through more than my fair share of unfortunate situations.
For instance,i'm in pain right now and working through it while typing this.It actually feels like i'm in a boxing match with myself.The healthy part wants the best and the unhealthy,the worse.
Unfortunately for me,there's no on or off switch for what ails me,so i'm going to try something different.
This morning I used my phone's camera to take a few pictures.
One of them I even used to change my avatar.
Wow;there's actually more fight in this dog than i've given myself credit for.
Can't Even Be Myself Without the Possibility of.........
I want my own life back;to know that I can post what I want,when I want and it not be used out of context.
They say the truth will set you free but in this case I feel that the truth may set me up.
Today i'm throwing down the gauntlet but am no way near raising the white flag in surrender.
If I am afraid to freely voice my opinions,then I can't be me;the person who I was meant to be,with no holds barred(well maybe a few,with staying within the rules and regs of this board).
Even though,I am left with enough leeway to get my point across.
Take my words and do with them what you may.
Twist them,re-examine them,present them in mid-sentence.......I just don't care anymore.
If people have to use cheap parlor tricks to take me down,it simply means there's nothing really there to exploit.
I'm not saying this will be done but please realize it's not beyond the scope of being both a reasonable and rational possibility.
Sun Tsu;where are you when I need you most?
Or am I joking;time will most certainly tell. All jokes aside.